It’s no lie that this year has been absolutely outrageously frustrating. This has been the year of loneliness and exhaustion and annoyance and fear. It’s a year that I for one do not want to remember. It’s even more frustrating when you know going into this holiday season you know that you aren’t going to be able to spend it with your whole family as per usual (at least if you are a responsible member of society here in the USA, which apparently we have a lack of common sense).
I’ve not put up a christmas tree up yet. I don’t think I’m going to. The emotional drain that is already weighing on my shoulders is weighing heavier with each passing day. With COVID numbers rising and the number of people taking the pandemic seriously dropping, the pandemic seems never ending.
I’m tired.
So very tired.
I want to see my family. But I don’t want to run the risk of exposing my older aunts and father.
I want to hang out with my friends.
But I don’t want to expose my immuno-compromised friends.
So here I am. Sitting on my bed. Alone. Wish and waiting for adults to act like adults. For people in this country to have compassion for each other again. For citizens to have the decency to take the necessary steps needed to prevent the death of the people around them.
Thank God I‘m not immuno-compromised. Thank God I’m not to afraid to work. Thank God I haven’t been fired, that my income hasn’t been affected by the pandemic. I know others have not been so lucky.
Why is it that half of the people in this country only have compassion for one another when it fuels their own political views. Our empathy should not swing on how easily we can twist their story to push our own political views. Empathy isn’t political.
Human Decency isn’t Political.
Not wanting the person next to you to die-that shouldn’t be political. But somehow it is. How?
How is it that we can so easily turn our face away from the pain around us while using this pain to cause MORE pain? I don’t understand. Somebody please explain.
Where did the human decency go?
Where is the Humanity.
Fuck.
